FINDING THE LIGHT

When my Mum died unexpectedly, I made her a promise.

I would find the light that she had tried so hard to discover her whole life. It evaded her until the end and the darkness won. As her daughter and the custodian of her genes I felt it incumbent on me to carry her dreams in my heart and forge my way out of the darkness. For her, for her Mother and for the generations of women who came before us who let their dreams die in them.

When my Mother entered a room, most people would turn. I realise now that it was not just her physical beauty, that was quite extraordinary, but it was an energy that she carried in her heart. A magnificent aura that permeated the space around her.

She sadly never ever saw her captivating magnetic charisma. She was crippled with self-doubt and agonising low self-esteem – and trauma – that presented in mental health challenges and breakdowns and in the latter part of her life an addiction to alcohol, that sadly eventually broke her, despite her valiant efforts to overcome it.

I grew up with the burden of believing that I could make it all better, that I could save her. That my love for her would protect her and keep her from harm. When she died in front of me – as the paramedics tried to revive her ailing heart – I remember thinking – the deep irony that my biggest fear all my life is now playing out in front of me.

The lesson for me is that it was not my responsibility to save her. It wasn’t when I was a little girl assuming the adult role that was assigned to me out of necessity.

I will not let the darkness win and the ghosts of demons past live on in my bones. I will forge a new path forward for me but most importantly for my children and the generations to come.

This ends with me.

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